Well clearly it isn't or I wouldn't be writing....
I just saw something online about people telling people to be positive and it really annoyed me and reminded me of a couple of significant times last year I was told to do that by managers, so I thought I could write about it during Mental Health Awareness Week because that's the week we're allowed to talk about it before it drops back off the radar. My mind spends all day telling me I'm messing things up, that things may go wrong, overthinking and knocking six bells out of any self worth I have managed to build up. Is it any surprise then that I struggle with positivity when my mind is wired to automatically go negative. If your car wiring wasn't working and the indicator switch worked the wiper would just telling the car to do what you wanted and to do things 'properly' work or would you investigate the cause and see what you could do to get the outcome you wanted. It's one of my crapper analogies but still works I think. I think a lot of people may be getting an insight into what this type of mind is like to live with during the current crisis. Positivity can be knocked out of you and that's likely happening to more people than would care to admit it at the moment (bloody stigma). I wish I didn't have this mind and you telling me to do something which is really really difficult for me doesn't help, it makes me feel even more useless than I already do. I hope that helps you understand a bit, and if not I'll just re-write this in a foreign language that I find really really hard to understand, because that will probably be easier than 'just' being positive. And recognising that those who point out the negatives are as valuable as those who point out the positives is worthwhile, my weakness is my strength, or something like that. Take Care Paul
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January 2021
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