I am currently mid wobble, or maybe not mid, but definitely within one. It feels horrible. My anxiety is spiking regularly, I can't keep off social media on my phone, i'm drinking too much and my mind is stuck on a constant thought loop about whether things I have done are the right things or the wrong things. I know exactly what has triggered it. Anxiety is much like a drug addiction, you can wean yourself off the thing(s) that make you anxious and work on being more resilient, but if you catch sight of your drug, touch it and don't necessarily actually have to taste it then it can set you spiking.
I'm sat at a desk on my own, no one sits within 10m of me. That doesn't help. It's lonely. I havent spoken to anyone today. I feel like I'm on the verge of tears.................................................
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AuthorMr Paul Wyse Archives
January 2021
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